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Tuesday, February 24, 2009

24th February 2009.

today's our five months. and u got angry at me coz of tht. yeah ii knoww. ii'm sOrry. guess u got tired of hearing ''i'm sorry'' and i'd be tired of saying it too someday. (:
i want you and i love you. very much. way more than u do.
today's not really how i expected it to be. (: got diaOed by two teachers. wtf. damn dulan. zhen de hen very beh song. fckwit. =X tongtong never loved using bad words but wth.in canteen tdy..saw pnZuhaira and so i was like..''hii miss!y so emo..?'' abd she went. ''why? u got problem isit?'' me.'' uhm..O.o no..'' her,'' then?why are u disturbing me? '' i was like wtf. boh song lao gong bu yaO ni liaO ah?eat icecream la. u'll feel better. dont go around emo-ing mah. =( wtffff.
got scolded frm Ms.Jancy too tdy. WTF larh their problemmmm.. =_=
Pn.Zaidah still suckk. blekk
sanveer acted like Zaidah tdy and we were laughing :P irwin did something funny too tdy. he was nice tdy. for the first time =X.
gahhhhh. wth. :P i've so much things on my mind jz now and i couldnt even get a thing out nOw. talking rubbish all the wayy.
tongtong arh! watt laa happened to uuu... T.T

Saturday, February 21, 2009

21st February 2009.


so many things to catch up. have been wasting so much time. buang masa. :P
nOw.

: accounting. :: maths. :: commerce. :: history. ::music theory.
i've got these five subjects to concentrate on. and am aiming for perfection.
:: i've abandoned The Word.The Truth. for about a month.gotto catch up. i felt so sinful now. (:
but i still hate joshua ho. wth.
:: runninng. hadnt gone for training since last month. sports day's next month. T.T
:: swimming. ehhhhh i got sunburned wth. half the part of my body's like red and tanned nOw. omg. T.T i look lyka tortoise. nyways. we had swimming gala in school tdy n i got 2Silvers and 1Gold. (: silver: breaststroke. silver:backstroke. Gold :waterpolo.
and i dont even feel happy inside. ii wish ii could laugh a real laugh once again.
:: catching up with a few peeps. (:
::i've been emoing over the past few days. back then. how i wish. i was such a happy girl. looking at the pictures make me wanna cry. lOlx. wth. i look happy nOw. but eyes are giving me away again. heart damn sakit. cant breathe. fed up. find it damn hard to express now. its so hard to talk to u properly. wtf.
maybe i've never appreciated the times i had. oways grumbling n stuffs. (: now's even worse. i miss the times. if only i could turn bck time. (: every second sucked. hate to admit it but wth. i've made a mistake. again.
where's the happy tongtong?

back then.


Mr.TikUS.
introducingg.... MY NEW FRIEND.
damn handsome n lengzaii right.
i know :D.
he'll be my best friend frm today onwards. T.T
ohhwell.
``tongtong was here!





Friday, February 20, 2009

exactly what i felt right nOw.

biarkan waktu truslah berputar
mencintai kamu penuh rasa sabar
mesti sakit hati ini kau tinggalkan
ku ikhlas tuk bertahan

cintaku padamu begitu besarr
namun kau tak pernah bisa merasakan
malah kini kau ucapkan selamat tinggal
membuat keresahan

kau meniggalkanku tanpa perasaan
hingga ku jatuhkan air mata
kekecewaanku sungguh tak berarah
biarkan ku harus bertahan

jangan pernah kau coba
untuk berubah
tak relakan yg indah
hilanglah sudah.

``tongtong was here.
11:15pm.

wo xiang yao de na pian tian kong, ni shi bu shi neng gou geh wo?

changes.
we've changed. the times've changed.
i felt so insecure.
nothing will be the same now.

its all different.
its not tht i dont care.
its just because i'm too tired to give a fuck anymore.
i'm sorry.
worth it or not worth it tht i dont mind.
u've changed. alot.
its harder to suck as i thought.
but of course. i'd wish for things to be the same again.
but it never will be.
again. u've changed.
bless u babe.
stop acting puh lease.
aint it tiring?
though it hurts.
it takes time.

thanks. (:

special thanks to these few great peeps i met. (:

vintagebabe.Tarisma.
forever my babe. i know u know we know ;D love yaa loads! thanks for being there for me all the time. (: thanks for the great times we spent. DEI.. i wan go badminton again. ):

MACdonald's.KevinMac.
dei. (: not suprising ur here ahh. u know i'm close to u :D i'm more than a sister but less than a girlfriend aite? i still remember u telling me tht :P nyways. thanks for tht ear. lol. thanks for being there too. (: never had a friend i trust so much. (other ddhen taris of course :P) i knew u since kindy. =_= wht to do? ):

Yeeyin.
though not really close. and though we've only knew each other for a few months. but. thanks. for everything.(: for helping me with my work
><
for.the listening ear. for being there for me at times. thanks alOt.i reallyy appreciate it. (: i'm lucky to've met u in school.(:
the miss most perfectttt i've ever met.
><
seriously, people... she's pretty.she's smart. she's nice. she's realllyy nice btws. [: she's good.
honestly. i've never seen anyone as perfect as herr. @.@
its sure a blessing knowing you. (:
and LiANG HSIN too.

KhaiJuinn.
hahhh.=P thanks la frenn. `` (: for all ur time. for tht listening ears and d reading eyes.(cz we've never talked. just chat on msn.1 year dy. =O) for the advices. for the things u kept telling me. (: wishing u well in china :D thanks laa. lol. :)

Shenhao.
yess. and i'm sorry too. really am. =X thanks for all ur time.for making me laugh even when ii'm crying. (: ur like a brother u know tht :D thanks for the shoulder to cry on. really appreciate it. thanks gOrgOrr..! blekk:P
and to SSU peeps. (: thanks.

yogaa.
haiyo. thankss la for everything. :( dont angry me liaO lerh.....

Derrick chan li Der.(i lovee ur full name. ahah. sowies!)
i know u sometimes hate me. :P but. small boii boii...... terima kasihh ! :D

and. last but not least.
to my JAYCHOU. ahh. :P
emo time listening to jaychou is d best thing in d world. no la. not exactly the best. d best's oways spending time with kvn kvn kvn(uis'.)! blekkk...

``tongtong was here.
hugsnkisses.
<3.>

14551. (:

5201314: 我爱你一生一世
12825: 你爱不爱我
14551: 你是我唯一
5261: 我暗恋你
9213: 钟爱一生
53719: 我深情依旧
51930: 我依旧想你
7758: 亲亲我吧!
77895: 紧紧抱住我
53881: 我想抱抱你
584521: 我发誓我爱你
119425: 你依旧是爱我
246437: 爱是如此神奇
4422335: 时时刻刻想着我
1392010: 一生就爱你一人
9918875: 求求你别抛弃我

Special. (limited gehh. ) : 012 6559613 我的电话号码^^

:: copied from jeslyn meii de.. hope ui dont mind yah!:X if u do, msg me. (: ::

``tongtong was here.
3pm.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

p.s. / i love you.

i've nO idea how to start diz but anyhow i know i've to get diz done or else. ): thie post here's specially to kevinS. my boii. :x pfft. too open yaa i know. but i couldnt do this in a sms so u know lah. too hard to type on phone. (= hehe
just wanted to say i'm sorry. even though i know i've said it a million times but i want u to know tht i really meant it everytime i said it. it might be meaningless and useless to u i know. aihz. but still. i'm sorry. for everything. i know i sucked in every way.i love you. but i dont knOw how to show. and. thanks. for everything. i really appreciate it. (:the things we did together and the time we'd spent. thanks alot.(: ur sometimes saying u dont make me happy n all tht... i felt so bad.u made me happy everyy second. even when ur not here. when i'm at home.=.= thinking of u made me happyy. as i've said..ur the best thing tht've happened in my life. and i so mean it. jiatong dont love to lie lah weih=P. and.yess. i know i might have changed.and i know i'm not really nice.and i know i dont treat you good.i dont know why but i find it difficult to be myself now. i feel different. around ppl. it takes time okae babe..i've changed.but my feelings towards u will never change aite. i love you. fucking dO. =x always will. and i hope u feel the same too. i'll try my best to be my old self again. (: II'L REALLY TRYY. lol.

kevin.i love youuuu.

``tongtong was here!
8pm.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

8.20pm.


its been really depressing and i dont know why.
i'm a happy girl right? (:
well ii guess.
i dont feel quite right. still wish i could turn back time.
its assesment's 2moro and i hadnt studied AT ALL.
we've commerce and maths 2moro. my two worst subjects.
wth.gonna stay up late 2nite. (: i just nid some me-time ii guess. a shower wud do. wtf. =x hehh.
it takes time. oh yeah. i cudnt think stright. fruz. :s i'm sick of it. i sure am.
never thought it wud be like that.
for all i know. once i want it, i'll never let go.
i suck right? (:

haiyO jiatong!stOp feeling sad for urself laaa. wake up leh tongg. (:! u enjoY life right?
ohh yess. i'm so gonna live it as it is.

time to WAKE UP LA WOI !

::THE SCARS OF LIFE::



Love is when God became man.'

Some years ago, on a hot summer day in south Florida, a little boy decided to go for a swim in the old swimming hole behind his house. In a hurry to dive into the cool water, he ran out the back door, leaving behind shoes, socks, and shirt as he went. He flew into the water, not realizing that as he swam toward the middle of the lake, an alligator was swimming toward the shore.
His father, working in the yard, saw the two as they got closer and closer together. In utter fear, he ran toward the water, yelling to his son as loudly as he could.
Hearing his voice, the little boy became alarmed and made a U-turn to swim to his father. It was too late. Just as he reached his father, the e alligator reached him.
From the dock, the father grabbed his little boy by the arms just as the alligator snatched his legs. That began an incredible tug-of-war between the two. The alligator was much stronger than the father, but the father was much too passionate to let go.
A farmer happened to drive by, heard his screams, raced from his truck, took aim and shot the alligator..
Remarkably, after weeks and weeks in the hospital, the little boy survived His legs were extremely scarred by the vicious attack of the animal. And, on his arms, were deep scratches where his father's fingernails dug into his flesh in his effort to hang on to the son he loved.
The newspaper reporter who interviewed the boy after the trauma, asked if he would show him his scars. The boy lifted his pant legs. And then, with obvious pride, he said to the reporter, 'But look at my arms. I have great scars on my arms, too. I have them because my Dad wouldn't let go.'
You and I can identify with that little boy. We have scars, too. No, not from an alligator, but the scars of a painful past. Some of those scars are unsightly and have caused us deep regret. But some wounds, my friend, are because God has refused to let you go. In the midst of your struggle, He's been there holding on to you.
The Scripture teaches that God loves you. You are a child of God. He wants to protect you and provide for you in every way. But sometimes we foolishly wade into dangerous situations, not knowing what lies ahead. The swimming hole of life is filled with peril - and we forget that the enemy is waiting to attack. That's when the tug-of-war begins - and if you have the scars of His love on your arms, be very, very grateful. He did not and will not ever let you go.Please pass this on to those you love. God has blessed you, so that you can be a blessing to others. You just never know where a person is in his/her life and what they are going
through. Never judge another person's scars, because you don't know how they got them. Also, it is so important that we are not selfish, to receive the blessings of these messages, without forwarding them to someone else.
Right now, someone needs to know that God loves them, and you love them, too - enough to not let them go
.

``tongtong was here.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

well.maybe.

well,maybe we were brought up differently.
different environment.
different places.
different things around us.
those tht surrounds us.
different people.

the way we think might be different.
the way we feel.
the way we set things up.
the way we thought of each other.
the way we thought things are alrite when its nOt.
and it always turns out upside down.

and in d end.
we were brought together.

maybe. we were all not thought to express.
properly.
and it turned out hurtful. we dont mean it. yess.
we all know tht.
we jz couldnt get the right words out.
never would.

but babe.
i just want you to know tht right from d bottom of my heart..
i love you. to the core.
and i mean it. lol
so damn mushyy.=.= but. wthh. since i'd started.(:
yess i agree i sometimes get angry really fast and yess i admit i dont even know why.
jz being pathetic. u know. i'm sorry, (:
and ohh yess.i know i've saidtht a million times'' ii'm sorry''. and maybe to u it doesnt mean anything anymore.
but well. i just want you to know tht ii really mean it.
i need you. i want you. i love you.
till forever ends. (:
at times u'd think i get angry at u for no reason. but honestly. i aint even angry at u. i'm jz. keeping quiet. not talking. and you'd assume i'm angry.
i know its really mean. =x of me suddenly staring ahead looking into space and saying nothing at all. but its jz..
sudden change when i dont feel like talking at all. and no. u did nothing wrong. so stop wondering and breaking ur head and thinking wht u did wrong. susahkan u oni la. (: ur perfect. there's nothing wrong ii see in you. aite? love is blind. pfft. :P
dont say sorry. please. (: the last person who said it broke my heart the worse. lOlx
no worries babe. (:
live life as it is.


HappyValentine's shaayunkk. (:

Friday, February 6, 2009

am in school again now. we've like 3lessons of computer diz week :p

school.
is damn boring.

something happened yesterday. =s du lan.(idk why i love to use tht word now. hehe) hmm nyways. [: as alex said. wake up and think ahead. :D hadnt been talking to mum for whole 2 weeks. keep it up babe! life is so and so. (:

``tongtong was here. ):

666.life is reality.

i used to hear ppl saying.'' lies hurts. but not as much as truth.''
now i understand why. (=
666.-life is reality.
realistic la sikit weih!
they're all the same.
we're all the same. (=
once a chicekn forever a chicken aite? :D

``tongtong was here.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

10.39pm.

i still miss the rings. aihz. damn diu. =x she wearing two gold rings herself lOr. shinning shinning summor. sakittt mata ii. 心好tong阿!

two questions i can never really answer.
我真的爱你吗? 那你真心的爱我吗?
我们在一起真的开心吗?

afta tht thing afta school in class tdy. i dont know why but i couldnt really 4get about it. it keeps staying in my mind like. its pasted there. blehh. ==
ii'd melt jz right then.

tears are dropping as ii'm typing diz. hOw could u do this? i cant stand it anymore... were uu ever happy for me? why do u've to do diz..?

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

these few people.


its somehow odd missing these ppl suddenly. they all used to be ppl i talk to almost everyday. and nOw not even saying hii. D=


.yaakub.
.hamstershawn.
.alextan.
.shawnlee gorgor.
.fooksoon.
nyways. i felt the need to say ii'm sorry.
dont ask me why.
pffts.

tongtong was here!``

2.43pm.

am in school nOw.
got caught tdy. damn du lan. lolx.
rings got confiscated. ii've never felt so bad in school diz year.
fuck priscilla.
dont have much time nOw. :D
damn sadd lor hou mou..

till here. ):
tongtong was here``

Sunday, February 1, 2009

11.58pm.

ii'm overreacting. childish. ii know. fuhh.
i had a really weird dream last nite. its been so long since ii dreamt. and diz particular dream stays in me. i could even feel it. exactly. the eyes. i could still sense it. so clear. *sigh*. my heart beats its beat.

it was all so surreal.
something i've never even thought of. but it was so real i could almost touch everything innit.
it scares me.
the feeling never really leaves. (=

she wonders why.

leading and impossible life.

oh yeah.

sorry.

ANDREW LEE.
KELVIN CHIN.
ii've meant to say diz fOr a long time.

ii'm sorry. really am.
ii hadnt expect it to turn out like tht either.



sOrry.

``tong tong was here.!

same old me.


i'm lOving myself soo much i felt like kisssing miie. wth. :D
nyways.=( i saw diz thing in diz place which costedrm69.90. and they said there's 50% off. and when they brought it to d counter. dey say no discount. wtf. i loved tht thing so much.
i saw shorts in rOxy's. and i sO have to get em'. :D


life's gOod. (:
ahh. btw. HAPPY CNY peeps! angpaO's. aahhh.... =P
``tongtong was here.
10.08pm.
lurves herr shaayunkks. [: