2ndJanuary09.

and so well. we were supposed to have dinner 2nite. 8of us.
BUT.

kelvin tuition.daniel's parents outta town.fook ffk last minute.wtf.yap cudn(and he later say we never ajak him. pfft).melvin said he had tuition till 8pm and we tried calling him but he din pick up s0. huhh. he later called at 10pm asking if when are we going to go 0ut.. and ii was like.''ooh. we jz came bck''. we sorta shouted at me and=( dahlah tak pickup calls n ffked us and he later said sorry and sumthing bout l0sing his phone. gahh.whatever. u knoww ii'm not going to let u go diz easily. blueks.

SO.

thiv.kevin.me. three of us. first time :P wth.

AND.

we had loadsa fun. walked to mcD later and kev and thiv were pointing at dd building infront of us and they were like..''ey.which newspaper company is ddhat ar?'' me: ''ahh. tht building put coffins for deadmen wan la.'' ahh. so the two of dem walked the other direction. ftw.we had to cross d road to get to d petrol station's mcD,so they were like.''jia.u runner ryte.let's run.'' and so when we did,this car zoomed right pass us ! damn shiok. wth. experience. xP wwhen we reached mcD mac took out his camera and the two of us were like.''eh.u bring ur camera oso ah.'' and thiv started taking his camera out too. and ii was like.''ehh.wait'' ii brought a camera too. wtf.damn ngam ._. but we din take any pictures though. ):

went bck at bout 9.30pm. [:

had fun.

kevin said we gonna go out on nights more next time :P he luvs it. and it was MY plan. wth. *perasan* =@

chaos!

``tongtong.

heartx eu. (:

something from fRiendSter. (:

a smile leads to a laugh
a laugh leads to a high 5
a high 5 leads to a hug
a hug leads to a kiss
a kiss leads to a make out
make out leads to a feel up
a feel up leads to a finger
a finger leads to a hand
a hand leads to a lick
a lick leads to a suck
So tell me how many people are you gonna smile at after you heard this cuz sex is like math.
you add the bed
subtract the clothes
divide the legs
leave your solution
and pray you dont multiply.

lol. wtf.

``xoxo.
bels.

4.42.pm.

they never cared.

they never bothered to.

s0 whY shud ii?

``xoxo.
tongtong.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

--from NeilGaiman's quote--
lolx.but well. Love Conquers. (:
and nothing changes it. wth.

01.01.09.

yess babe.
finally. new year. new start. new beginning(wth.same as new start) and. new me. (=
the past are not to be forgotten but are to bring it on as an experience and lesson for tomorrow. experience is the name everyone gives to their mistakes xD
memories ohh memoriess. everyone's so full of it. the past dont predict ur future.only if u make it to. dream as u'll live forever. live as u'll die today xD and peeps. oways remember diz. nobody can go back and start a new beginning,but anyone can start today and make a new ending.

what i've been through i've learnt alot from em'.

new year Eve's countdown party diz year was just GREAT.(:

again,as usual, we went plaza mount kiara for d countdown. they said there were more ddhen 1500 peeps but well. ( i dont think so ) n guess wwhat! oMg oMg! ur sO not gonna believe diz!

ii saw someone who looked exactly lyk robertPattison! macam twin brother okae xP but only. uhm. he's abittt fatter ddhen edward :D his sis is lyk avril lavigne n everyone was staring at herr. wtf. ;p

and so the band tht nite was M.R.G( some malaysian band ) and ahh. of course. they rawked. the lead singer's pretty hawt ( cz she sang my fave. song :D) n n n!d dancers!omg!their pax were like a painted picture! looks damn fake bcz their abs were so full and covered with muscles T.T wth. and pfft. they were half naked,yeah.

ii wore damn innocently tdy cz yeah. dad's friends wud be around (: sO i'had to be ''guaii lui'' for a nite ;D people kept staring thou.wht with dd heels :D *ahaha perasan nk mampus!* xP

eurasian & white people conquered d place 2nite. 80% were dem people. and we see a lady bout the age of 70 dancing along with us :P ftw. everyone was staring at herr. damn yengg okae!

the dancers were great -cuz- they dance all kinda dance! ftw. dey do latin,hiphop,yoga,line dancing,bboy(whatever dey call iit. ii remember cheehow showing it off to me once :D) and well. gahh. dey do almost everything. (: the DJ said they're one of the best dancers in m'sia. (:

well nyways peeps. ii had loadsa fun tht nite and i hope u do too. (: the fireworkds were right above our head and for the second time in my life, i felt proud to be a malaysian. :P

we did the countdown wrongly lastyear and everyone counted 3seconds faster so diz year they didn put the timer for us wth :P ilovefireworksnow. ftw. -_- i used to hate it okae. cz once diz YTL thingy put d fireworks 40minutes non stop right above our head. i got bored with em' den. ;P

and well. as usual,they were people doing shisha tht nite but diz year dey dont've d tattoo thingy anymore. =(

righttt at 12am the ppl around us sprayed the snowballs and partty poopers stuff and we were shouting like there's not 2moro. everything was just awesome. and we later danced n sang awhile when ii suggest tht we wish our parents happy new year and as soon as we reached,the DJ shouted''let's get the party started!!!'' and my mum went,''well. let's go home''. they were playing '' teenagers by mcr!! damn sad lor hou mou. ): nvm.nxt year:P i wont so pandai go wish my parents dy. ii'll stayyyyyy there till it ended and not let my parents find me so they cant go bck. pfft. wth.playing hide n seek mehh. btw. its funny how i got to accept the fact tht ii'm 15 now!:P*ooh finally*

psst: jesjes meii. uu want angmo zaii go mt.kiara find. :D damn got class wan damn lengzaii oso T_T all the bestt xD

well. so it ended here. (: went home n talked to shayunkk for awhile and spent my alone time writting till 5am. damn syiok okk!(:!

happy new year !

``ii miss FionaAmyLoh alllooott! ):

``school's starting only on tuesday. (: haihh.

*hearts my shaayunkk alot ohhkae* ^^

till then! :P

chaos.mwakies!

--belsbels--

11.03pm.

no lies puh lease. come clean babe.
accept me for who ii am. as ii've accepted you.
no worries. (: living life to the fullest and enjoying every second of it.
no regrets peeps. though ii'm so full of it now what uu've left for me.
can u even think? i doubt.
ii'm getting rotten here 而你假没事了。
你之知道我有多爱你吗?
你之道我放弃了多少吗?
and no. ii'm not complaining at all. (:
either way. ii'm loving life.
for what He has given me.
how ii wish ii was oways busy. =p
missed running.3months straight. jiatong ohh jiatongG
what must mr.alex think of u now leH?
i lOve JayCh0u
Everyone is made to feel ashamed by the ones who just go for it
They go speeding past against the wind
The beasts guarding the door spread their wings about to fly
Yet they have never seen a butterfly
They don't understand what
Is called a season with the fragrance of flowers
What is called wilderness with carpet-like grasslands
All the legends concerning to me
Are all wrong
They're all scraps of paper
They all need to be rewritten
To be humble to enemies
Sorry
I won't be
And in the distance a battle outside
The sound of the roars unknowingly
Travel across several streets
I'm determined
To break through this catastrophe
Who's being hunted in this world?
Who drips with blood yet
I'm doing it just to save your pure mind
On the city wall
I'm waiting for the devil to fall
The flames engulf the nameless tombstones
They're destroyed but they cannot be put to rout
Who do I need to fall in love with?
How can the ruins be understood by the snow
Only bracken fern grows and develops there
Those hatred have already taken the shape of a fort
How should I go about resolving them
A low threatening roarFrom those dragon shaped puppets
The noise they cannot make is called heartbreak
I wake up with a startle from your sobbing indirectly
It's so pure
Sharpening with tenderness
Understanding with love
On the frontier at the end of the world
Pure love is
Isolated
I'm at the common boundary of the falling city
Witnessing everything you do
With rust coloured tears
n btw.
to all pmr peeps. grats. (= ii just knoww u guys can do it!:D
though very lil' got straight A's. =x BUT hor. no faill mahh..hehe.rYte m0u?
joshua called when ii was sleeping jz now and said he got 6As. he said..''liu ger A..'' ii heart..''yi ger dou mei you..'' hehh.
>.<
paiiseh. and he s0unded damn sad.fought with the mummy summor. ):
haihs.his mum sometimes expect too much de larh..although he oways bully miie n make miie down.*he ALWAYS lansi me he smartt de arhs.huhh.* he sometimes oso really nice de..teach me do maths summor. pfft. ftw. ii know uu tried ur luuhx. (: donnid sad niaa.ur the best among all the ppl ii asked liao. wth. xD'
waiyukorkor orhx. must jia you nx year.^^ meii oways supporting uu de.
nn ya0ya0 arhx. of coz ii worry u leh.== damn worry summor. pffts.
weileong. uu betterrr get bck home fast.=( ii'm damn curious okiie. hehe
ii. uhm.wonder how shereen did in her pmr. hope she did well nyways. (=

belsa hearts.
(:
nitey nites!

the.new.age.

its weird ii know. for me to be blogging bout these stuffs. but iit somehow caught my attention while watching d ''hidden track'' movie yesterday.

New Age (New Age Movement and New Age Spirituality) is a decentralized western social and spiritual movement that seeks universal truth and the attainment of the highest individual human potential . It combines aspects of cosmology, astrology, esotericism, complementary and alternative medicine , various religious medicine ,collectivism, nature , and environmentalism . New Age Spirituality is characterized by an individual approach to spirituality, while rejecting religious doctrine and dogma.
practically,the new age beliefs tht human doesnt need to have feelings and they dont nid anyone to love or hate, they just, u knw.when dey want to laugh,the laugh, they wanna cry. dey cry. they're completely immune.they just. completely block feelings in dem. its weird. ii know.
even their way of counting is different from all of us. wtf.

*ii'm just curious.*

9.23pm.

so many things on my mind right now i cant get things straight *again*.

ii really wish i could fly to a far far away place and never come back after 10years.*but deng.ii'm gonna miss my bathroom after 2days.for sure* ;D and gahh. bring my bathroom with me. wth.

practically everyone home's sick and so the only sound heard now's my typing. wtff. ):

pretty fucked up right now but i AINT feeling sad. (:

说好的辛副尼。

Where's The Promised HappinessComposer: Jay Chou (周杰倫) (周杰伦)Lyricist: Vincent Fang (方文山) (方文山)

Your response is getting chaotic
At this moment
I think of the dove by the fountain
The sweetness disperses
My sentiments are dragged about for no reason
Do I still love you?
And you're singing the song intermittently
Acting like you're fine

Time has passedIt's gone
You face a choice in love
You're cold
Tired
I've cried
The unhappiness when you left
You write it down onto a card
For some love when you give to this pointI
t really hurts
What's going on?
You're tired
Where's the promised happiness?
I understand
Let's not talk about it
Love has faded
The dream has become distant
I count each and every happy and unhappy thing
Once more you're reluctant to let go
Those feelings of having loved are too deep
I still remember them
You don't wait anymore
Where's the promised happiness?
I was wrong
The tears have dried
I've let go
I've regretted
But the music box in my memories is still spinning
How can I stop it?
What's going on?
You're tired
Where's the promised happiness?

jiatong says.

just

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