appreciate. realisation.

little things in life we dont really appreciate.
sometimes so little we could not even see its there or even notice it has been there.
all the while knowing tht dey're by ur side at all time.
and as you thought.
will always be.
all the while knowing tht its jz a phone call away.
not bothering or giving a thought.
dey'll always be by ure side when u nid em'.
their shoulders always there for u to lean on.
always there to back u up.
those who actually stay.
dey'd eventuallt 4get wht wrong uu did.
evetually forgiveyou with just a few lines of ''please,i love you''.
all they see in you is perfect.
nothing is ever wrong about you to dem.
in their eyes u could do no wrong.
for love is blind. indeed.

so. how'd u feel?
knwoing someone'll always be there for you.
the resort.
funny but yeah,
its cz dey thought dey nid you to breathe.

so why care?

dey'd come bck to anytime with a few words of ur ingenuined endearment
dey'd come bck to u with a few sweet lies
dey'd always come bck to you with faked pleading eyes.
talks could buy d heart.words could deceive.

she'd be keeping quiet.
letting u take over.
she'd jz sit there.
waiting n readying to face whatever's next.

she'll endure.
she'll struggle with it silently.
she'd endorse with whatever u have to do.
whatever uu desire.
she plays along.
making herself look so stupid.
she's fine.ii tell you.
its fine you dont give a shyt.
its fine you dont care.
its fine you could do whatever u want and all the while hurting hrt
rub it in her face. hard.
it has been injured bad,so its fine if she has to mutilate once again.
she'd fucking play it along with u as if everything's alright.
she's bored. she sureis.
she's tired. of yeah.
of you.
ur not getting over it. ur not moving on.
isnt it childish to think of iit?
well.she just wants u to know.
tht she has feeling too. she's feeling every second of it.

funny isnt it?
seeing how she'll laugh it off.
how she'd thought ur jz teasing.
seeing how she's okay with whatver uu purposely said tht u know wud actually hurt her
amusing isnt it?
seeing how she's always happy and giggling.
apparently, she was taught a smile could cover a thousand tears.
and so she thought a chuckle or twso could cover a million tears.
funny how dey create it out. the word ''tear''-it meant something broke into half right?
so why ''tears'' adding and ''s'' at d end changes the whole meaning of it.
when u come to see of it,its related.
*how it tearS ur heart and how the tears wud then start dropping.
LAME I KNOW. BUT. realistic sikit la weih :P

playing dumb.
its okae though
cz babe,
she oways knows tht..
what goes around comes around.