life goes on. (=

if u'd think i couldnt live without you,
think twice.
who do u think ur?
my wall to lean on?
no way.
u were not there.
u never was.
u sucked.
all u do was mOck.
like i'd give a shyt bout it. (:
nothing could explain how much i hated you.
how much anger i had in you.
the disdain lOok.

you think ur sO good?
think twice.
bcz.
life is good.
withOut. yOu.

shOcker.

tongtong was here!(:

nO lOve. simple plan.

Staring out at the world across the street.

You hate the way your life turned out to be.

He's pulling up the driveway and you don't make a sound.

Cause you always learned to hold the things you want to say.

You're always gonna be afraid.

*There's only hate.

There's only tears.

There's only pain.

There is no love here.

So what will you do?

There's only lies.

There's only fear.

There's only pain.

There is no love here.*

Broken down like a mirror smashed to pieces.

You learned the hard way to shut your mouth and smile.

If these walls could talk, they would have so much to say.

Cause everytime you fight, the scars are gonna heal.

But they're never gonna go away.

so what will you do?

You're falling.

You're screaming.

You're stuck in the same old nightmare.

He's lying.

You're crying.

There's nothing left to salvage.

Kick the door cause this is over.

Get me out of here!

tell me what will you do?

There's only hate.

There's only tears.

Theres's only pain.

There is no love here.

``tongtong was here.

nolove.

yOur lOve is but a lie. simple.plan.

I fall asleep by the telephone
It's 2 O'clock and I'm waiting up alone
Tell me where have you been?
I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss, but it just don't feel the same
Cause I can feel that you're gone
I can't bite my tongue forever
While you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories
But don't take me for a fool
You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know
Your love is just a lie
It's nothing but a lie
You look so innocent
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah you know what I mean
How does it feel when you kiss when you know that I trust you
And do you think about me when he fucks you?
Could you be more obscene?
So don't try to say you're sorry
Or try to make it right
Don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late.
You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know, Your love is just a lie
It's nothing but a lie
You're nothing but a lie
You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I knowYour love is just a lie
I know you're nothing but a lie
Your love is but a lie!

*tongtong was here``.
(=

22ndMarch2009.

was just chatting with an old school friend(after a really long time) lol
and he was talking bout things in school.
and wth. as i thought back bout last time. i think i missed the dramas. the commotion.
the things tht go on everything. and how in this new place nothing goes on at all. everyday's like the same old Boring Ben. same old same old.(:
which would you prefer?
troubles or nOthing?
just wondering. u know.
i sort of miss.
loudness.


CHANGES.
gotta take it as it comes along.
we gotta play along. (:

*tongtong was here.!

infinity?.

its a long longg time since i updated. i know right =D. school sucked. =S life's alrite though. (: its wonderful.

and thanks to photoscape, all my piics. look better nOw. and also to jesjes Meimei..who introduced ''photoscape'' on her blog. =p

indeed. bluehs :P

adrian said diz pic. looked like i'm having dOwn syndrOme. whaddafark.

PiNK! rawks.

yeah right.

aifad n me. (:

mrS. singh! :D

have loads to talk! but tired liiaohs.

ciiaos.

tongtong was here~! (:

dissapointment.

yes it should've been a victory. but it was what i've never expected.
there's 3 events to go but ended up with only one.
and with tht i got a gold.
raced with 8 people.
but wth. i guess i'm not a very contented person.
bless me. hah.
and say byebye to my apple iPodTouch!)': sayonara!
registered under long jump.100m.200m.400m.
but ended up doing only 100m.
expected at least 3 meds.
should've done 4x100m.
should've diz. should've tht. ahh.
100m was a close catch. (: praisetheLord. (:

next year. there's always next year. (:
i regretted not posting blogs tht i shud've postedd.
and i've had such memories not to be forgotten.
guess ii forget most of it already. pfts.
>.<
aihh.
from today onwards. (:

6.05pm.
tongtong was here!``

a very schweet sunday morning. *pfft. wth*

waking up by the knock on my door.

lil' brother. ahh.

sho de veli ke aii.

brought breakfast to my room.

sho the veli sweet right. :)

tongtong was here!``

-

You can run,
But I am soul,

Without me,
You are not a whole.

Dare you try,
To let me go,
It wont work,
I hope you know.

Dont forget,
My love's for real,
To keep you here,
I would kill.

Learn to live,
Learn to die,
But where you go,
So do I.

hello to my new chapter. (:

its a but a chapter in my life.-there will be many more.
Remember the wonderful memories.
but dont be afraid to make some more.
(:
so there! hah. take it babe. ;D
i realised tht. i've missed so many things in the past. like. i would give anything to be back then. the start of year 2007. i had it all then. :)
sometimes i'd feel as if eveything belongs to me.
and sometimes i'd like i'm an outcast.
and at times i'd feel like i'm at d top of the world.
but at times i'd feel as if the whole world is against me.
and everytime i'd soon realise tht i'hadnt found myself. yet.
and am still searching.
how i'd oways wish my past was different.how i'd oways wish i was educated nicely poshly. since young.
but what in reality is that nobody could've ever guessed. yet imagine. i've even experienced these.
putting muds and sands into ur mouth just for the fun of it.
spitting down at people's head( people we dont even know ) from the higher floor just for the mischief.
waking up onbe random morning and see a toad in ur boot.
catching grasshoppers and rubbing dirt all over ur face.
ah! and now i'd realised. things had.indeed, changed so much.
and am trying to adapt. trying my best. yeah right.
i felt lucky now tht i had. its once in a lifetime okae. u dont geddit twice. ;D
i realised many people dont get to do what i did before.

and all in all the aim is to be way more better than my dad.
thing is he looks down on women. like my mum. what the hell.

again, it had only been a chapter in my life.
there'll again, be loads more.
dont be afraid.
tongtong gonna strive. (:

``tongtong was here!
8thMarch09.
loveeS. U.

dont wanna give a fuck. like i used to.

dont wanna care what u think of me anymore.
dont like jiu dont like. i wont force myself like i used to.
am not talking bad bout u people lar. but. who i'm with. is not for you ppl to judge.
as she said. u dont play with feelings. aite?
u not tired i damn tired.
i know i treat u bad. mean. everything lar. i'm trying ways to say sorry. i dont know how.
i want us to be friends again. but they're saying those stuffs behind.
i used to care so much whether u like me anot. but i guess i dont give a fuck now.
thanks.

10.00pm. to be exact.

``tongtong was here!

10.00pm.

when she was thirteen. (:

was browsing through files and found these. missed the times i had. memories flows back lyk river nile. wtf. =p had so much fun then. was so different then. thinks changes.

but,after many many years. i still listen only to jaychou. :D damn faithful wan okae! :P

uh. O.o?

tongtong hearts. tari. oways. (: aite? :D

the wonderful people i met. (: yongyee.me.daphen. lenglui leh they twO. ;P

shasha n me. (: sunway. ahh.

ookay. ookay. i know i WAS vain okae. =X

what we do in class everyday. :D F1D.staying at the back of class playing phones when teacher's teaching. our 'ziu pai' blehhs.

our class party tth was so ruined! but we had fun alrite. (moping and cleaning the whole corridor. wtf peeps.)

when we ponteng-ed class. and lihaO played d piano even though he neverr learnt b4. (:

i MISS MY HAIR.

and... bOo.! ==

the cheekiness of it all... =p

i was damn innocent okae. (:

RYTE?

(actually not really oso lar.=X)

tariiii!! see hOw much i love yOu! muahahaha.. mwahss!

to be continued... (:

``tongtong was here.!

11.25pm.