photo.of.the.moment.

photo.of.the.moment.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

.wasted tears.

maybe its a matter of state.
maybe its a matter of time.
maybe it was just not meant to be.
or..
maybe there was no feelings in to it.
maybe when time changes,things changes.
we changed too.
where's the trust?
where's the honesty?
where's the passion?
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maybe it was just curiosity.
maybe it was just merely misunderstanding.
maybe it was just curb.
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make me change.
make me be like i was.
make me.
if u could.
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everything had just gone askew.
or nothing was wrong at all.
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what has gone wrong was what left the bracket blank.
yes i'm a selfish person.
and yes.maybe u call me a control freak.
everyone sees it.the other way round sometimes.
nothing i could voice out anymore.
everything i say or do
is just wrong.
there's nothing i could say,nothing i could do.
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expectations.
yess.thats what they just are.
you thought.
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where is d love?
where's d forever we once used?
where's d word u used to say?
where are the pr0mises?
no.not promises.
the things we just said.
nada.
gone.
flown away maybe. (:
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yess.i admit i was wrong.
i admit i was a control freAk.
i admit i was selfish.
i admit i'm different.
i admit.i admit.i admit.
everything i do is just so wrong u couldnt even look at me anymore.
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look at you.
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there's an end to everything.
there's an end to a fairytale.
there was a once upon a time..
there was happily ever after..
there is a mystery into it too..
sometimes there's just nothing into it..
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there's no trust at all.
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so long.
nada.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

music.iloveyou. (:

viva la vida
infinities of praise to
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COLDPLAY

249.


watching as life passes you by
how it goes on without u realising today is yet another mystery.
we sat there wondering what's the point at all.
we sat there thinking what has gone wrong.
everything.
we never want to hold the truth.
we keep running away from it.
sleeping through the pain seems like a routine.
you're staring at me and i sat there wondering wth ur thinking.
life goes on.
run after it.
pills that takesover ur feelings.
well.
i guess love is when u longed for someone to be there with u every second.
looking up high at d smiling stars d frowning moon.
i want the freedom.to run.to get into d waters.
silent tears hid inside you.
and u screamed but find ur voice muted.
its still a mystery unsolved.
i dont know what u want.
i dont know what ur thinking.
it hurts to see u doing it like tht after all these months.
u made it clear that its all nothing to u.
so long. are you him?
the boy who sit beside me in sri utama school.
u cant love me for who i am now.
u loved me for who u thought i was before.
i shud've never let u in.
we shud've just stay there. max.
and we'll be happy oways,u not knowing who i am inside and vice versa.
maybe its better that way.

so long.toodles. (:

Friday, June 12, 2009

11.24pm. 12thJune2009.


its been a while since i blogged.
this week makes me realise how i dont understand and know the people around me. the people closest to me.
i've once thought. ''yess.i've known this person forever.we did everything together.clothes shopping.gossiping.we went through everything together''.
and yet.today.i realised i cant and dont really understand tht person deeply enough.
i soemtimes feel strangely distant from the person i spent everyday with.
like, i wake up one morning and.. ''hey,i knew this person??'' i scared myself.really.
life's been so and so. school tdy was kinda diaoed cz of tht dance thingyy we've to do for school annual's concert. its..well.really.tak masuk akal in a way.and we're like spending lots of time onnit.i'm declaring myself as a quitter on this. *winks*
nyways went to pavi with my darrhlinkk kvn afta school. was supposed to meet up with mac and the peeps but apparently,:D teehee. sorry laa i ffk.
>.<
watched Jangan Pandang Blakang Congkakk
for a chicken like me it was sure scary but everyone else was laughing pfft.
u know la.bdk kecikk. *.* i never dared watch ghost movies.
the movie was okay. (x not better than Quarantine right syggg?? :P
went for nandos laterr.n i swore i'd NEVER NEVER GO NANDOS for the rest of my life.
wwht do they think we're??born without tongue senses? omgg. it was freaking hott i tell u.freaking.
had to rush bck later.it was raining so heavily.the taxi driver talks non stop.
it was annoying in a nice way. (:
but well.he sometimes say too much it annoys me.
ANYWAYS.

toodles.(:

Sunday, June 7, 2009

goodnites. (:


toodles``. (:

dOtz. .speechless.

7.20pm. 7thJune2009.
-vintagebabe- says:
tong tong?
Cso‧ωнат?❥i 。sø 。 ℓovε 。 м¥ 。 εғғiиg 。 ℓi ғз ]❥__ змo-gεεк ▎▎•вℓiик•вℓiик• ▎✖ғuск.уou.вiтсн ☠sø.iи.❤.ωiтн. mii3✖ says:
heyy
-vintagebabe- says:
guess you just saw me online huh?
or you practically are hating me right now or pissed with me cause i blew you off last week huh?
wateever , guess your busy
ciao.
Cso‧ωнат?❥i 。sø 。 ℓovε 。 м¥ 。 εғғiиg 。 ℓi ғз ]❥__ змo-gεεк ▎▎•вℓiик•вℓiик• ▎✖ғuск.уou.вiтсн ☠sø.iи.❤.ωiтн. mii3✖ says:
o.o
hey.
lol
heyyyyy
my bro. was using d comp.
he called me when he saw diz msn thingyy poped up..
i wasnt even here at d comp jz now..
-vintagebabe- says:
uh huh!
Cso‧ωнат?❥i 。sø 。 ℓovε 。 м¥ 。 εғғiиg 。 ℓi ғз ]❥__ змo-gεεк ▎▎•вℓiик•вℓiик• ▎✖ғuск.уou.вiтсн ☠sø.iи.❤.ωiтн. mii3✖ says:
.....==
-vintagebabe- says:
...?
so watch have you been up too?
hows life without me?
Cso‧ωнат?❥i 。sø 。 ℓovε 。 м¥ 。 εғғiиg 。 ℓi ғз ]❥__ змo-gεεк ▎▎•вℓiик•вℓiик• ▎✖ғuск.уou.вiтсн ☠sø.iи.❤.ωiтн. mii3✖ says:
...........
swtz.
-vintagebabe- says:
bye
you asked for it.


wwhaddahell?

Saturday, June 6, 2009

my current. <3


Tapi Bukan Aq.
Jangan lagi kau sesali keputusanku
Ku tak ingin kau semakin kan terluka
Tak ingin ku paksakan cinta ini
Meski tiada sanggup untuk kau terima
Aku memang manusia paling berdosa
Khianati rasa demi keinginan semu
Lebih baik jangan mencintaiku aku dan semua hatiku
Karena takkan pernah kau temui, cinta sejati
Berakhirlah sudah semua kisah ini
Dan jangan kau tangisi lagi
Sekalipun aku takkan pernah mencoba kembali padamu
Sejuta kata maaf terasa kan percuma
Sebab rasa ku tlah mati untuk menyadarinya
Semoga saja kan kau dapatiHati yg tulus mencintaimu
Tapi bukan aku
tongtong``. <3s.

Boo! :P

its d sixth of june now and i hadnt done anything.