my mission from 10.50pm onwards.

i get easily annoyed when i think i'm dumb.maybe i just am comparative.she's smart.and i'm not.she gets it.and i dont.there's nothing i go against with looks.cz we're just born like that.nothing changes it.
but brains?
we are what we made ourselves.
like.u used diz kinda material to make some shoe.u put in effort and used d best material and it turns out to be Nike.auction bidding from rm400.
and thus.u use another kind of material intending to make more profit than anything,using the cheapest material and not putting in any hardwork with handiwork.it turns to to be pasarmalam shoes.LELONG RM10 for 2!

what's really on my mind is now that why i'm not as smart as other people. i think i'm a chapter slower.i dont get things in a click!i'm the kind who only understands the maths equation hours later tht was on the board hours ago. i actually nid hours to understand some stupid stuff. i'm that dumb. there's so many things i dont know.and am SO eager to know in other words.i just cant wait for all these knowledge to get into my empty brain. yess.i'mintendingtobeanerdnow.
its a wonder how these people could write 15pages of answers and i could only write 4.it bugs me alot. what do they've to write. yess.we've the same question paper.only their answers is 15pages and mine is 4. how far compared is that?
and i hate the fact of being looked down by people. they say i'm like my dad. only he works hard for it.and i think i'm not working at all.
u know the disdain look. it bugs me i cant sleep well sometimes. this one week holiday and i'm spending almost everyday in d shopping complex windOw shopping.like it'll do me any good. u bet. monday=pavillion.tuesday=klcc.wednesday=timesSquare.pavillion.thursday=midvalley.
i feel really guilty now. so friday is my study day. (:
i really admire these girls in my school who're smarties and feel good bout themselves. =[
i wanna be one of em'.
those who feel so good bout themselves and dey get loudd.?with nothing but a peanut?
they make me laugh.
i dont wanna look in d mirror and see myself as them.
i want a change.
like.finally.
i'll try.): i just have to pass accounting.i never did.and math. waththehell. i couldnt even get an 80 for english nOw. i'm loving history.but what's with the 15pages answers? i think i've a very low memory.maybe i was born when d hardDisk in heaven is out of stock.
i always tell myself i'll study i''l studyy. but something surely comes out when u know.like. i always get the excuses. i dont know why. they just come up with a click!and i tend to completely forget i just havehavehavehave to studyy!=<
imustlovestudyingnow.
because this will be a mission from 10.50pm onwards. :D

tongtong was here!``
mwahhs.
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