sometimes its better to keep my mouth shut. sometimes.

its been a long time since i last blogged.
and yet so many has happened.
its been hectic. i felt like breaking down.sometimes i'd just appear calm and tht nothing's wrong..but sometimes i'd just be rude to everyone and blow it off.and later, i feel bad.
i'm tired.of everything.i'm tired of trying to make people happy.when i myself isnt even at all.
not saying the people around me dont make me laugh la.they do. (:
i was especially mad at someone yesterdayy..wasnt really in the mood actually.and then tht someone reminded me of someone. (which was.very stupid.i mean.i'm stupidd.=x)and i was asking him to get something and he wudnt.i got mad and i shouted at him.kinda accused. and he got pissed. who's more pissed now?
i get pissed off inside very easy now. cant figure out why. i'm at time appearing so calm.especially at home. it freaks me out a lil'.
one of the dog ran away and mum was telling us,all of my siblinggs went ''HAHH!!?!!WHEN!!!??!!'' and i just ''mm.''and nodded.
i get frustrated with myself its intruiging. (=
i shrugged someone(i <3)>
i laugh when i'm sad. i sulk when i'm happy. whaddafark's wrong with me?
i do what i dont mean to do. like shrugging people off. being angry at other for no freaking reasons.
and when people really piss me off. like. dad who spoilt our plans. like when some guy suddenly acussed me tdy. i just laughed. i'm daft. seriously.
gotta get a life.asap. (;

its like d world has gone upside down.