ten ten ten tenn..!

yes. thts wwhat. i'm fuming mad right nOw.

fuming.with anger.

its not like i dont give in.

its not like i hadnt tried.

its not like i spend my time in front of the couch watching telly.

in fatc, i dont even watch.

its not like i spend my time going out everyday before d exams.

other than going for revision classes.

and thts what i got for all d fuss.

why even bother?

i frigging tried. i fuCking tried.

ookay. i'm not those kind tht swear.but.u know the feeling when u tried sO damn damn damn hard. gave all you can in,while seeing others actually watching telly infront of d couch so comfortably and ur miles away. S.T.U.D.Y.I.N.G.and that person who watched the telly. got better marks than you.how the heck wud u really feel?

ookay.anyways.i felt like giving up.what's the point?i never failed any subjects (except accounting)when i first came.now its like i'm failing everything altogether.maybe old nathan might be right. i'm spending too much time on that.i've took the wrong way.

no.not d shortcut i'm talking aboutt.

its d way.where you choose to have fun(apparently.wait till it turns d other way round)and choosing

something tht again,apparently,u know will not go into ur future.

whaddafark is wrong with me.

i think i nid a break.

kit kat breakk.

bwahhs.

no one to blame.

only me.me.me.and myself.

i felt so hurt when KEVIN MAC(AND IF UR READING THIS.yeah. this is d first time u said sumthing tht hurt me).

ookay. when i asked u if SHE was smart u were like. ''i'm in a nerd class la.wad u think?''

i felt so insulted. sOrry.no offence.still friends okae. (=

i felt tht pang in my head like.

nobody likes girls from dumb classes.u gotta be smart thats all it takes.i know thts not wht u really mean mac. but.i dunoo.i felt offended.

and when i dont do well in studies.everything goes down.

i feel guilty online-ing. i feel guilty talking on d phone. i feel guilty txting.

i feel guilty eating desserts.i feel guilty spending money.

on books.on clothes. things i love the most.

whaddafark

totally losing myself.

sorry to those who just have to suffer with me.

OKAYY. to summarise it.

its frigging embarassing already.

i got 3 tenS.

and a few people. in fact.

got three 100s.

its just a ''0'' difference.

and someone is fcking rude its making me fume again.

i feel like the stupiedest person in the world.

i'm upset alrite. freaking am.

i got like. 26 for history. i really.honestly.expected i could actually pass history.

its my fave. subject. i liked d oldNathan and nothing's wrong with memorising all d old ancient stuffs. blah.

i wrote like 2 pages on d biography on anne frank and another two pages for some old anciet guy i'm actually supposed to know.

the answers alone were five pages already. i'd thought my hand almost came out while writting it.

i enjoy reading the facts.

but wth. 26 marks?!

oldNathan went like..''aiyaa..maybe i mark wrong..shud give u 62''.

yess old man. indeed. ):

anyways. i got ten ten ten ten..! bwah. suprisee!

i got 10/100. for accounting. i got 10/100 for math. i got 10/100. for Commerce.

i am upset okae. really. am.for the first time.==

i am ggOing insane.

like. totally.

i'm going through a phase of heart changing.

its confusing.

i wan o-u-t.

i'm nOt.

going to give up.

i'm nOt.

i'd thought i WANT and really WANT to giveup when i was first blogging diz post.

after much thought. after the supports i get frm diz few amazingly adoring people.

a changed of heart came up. (:

i'll start it all over again.

Nothing is impossible.

gosh. i felt like crying over my failure.